The silent search for meaning; sometimes we have so much to say but no
words come out and there they remains in our heart left unsaid; Hearts are
often broken by words left unspoken; life is short there is no time to leave
important words unsaid…
It was pretty hot in the room and she lay restlessly on her bed. The
fan above turning with an untuned music produce no air to that unventilated
dark room.
She rose from the bed
and moved towards the table there she kept drinking water in a bottle of some
unknown soft drink.
A few mouths of water
were not that enough to escape from thirst. She dropped the bottle with a
little anger.
Beside her bed lie
another two empty beds as the owners already left home after the final exams at
college.
She sat restless in the
chair near her study table above which lies the books of yesterday’s exam, some
still half open.
Pens, pencils and books
were spread out at that table like the remains of a world war. A family of ants
was in duty of a half consumed packet of biscuit placed near the emptied
bottles of water.
She gave no importance to these dramas.
After series of night outs for exams she was loving to have a deep
sleep and at middle of the night she is still sitting awake lonely in the
hostel room finding answer for something.
As it was last exam of the semester or the entire course she was a bit
exited and didn’t give enough importance even to the NB portions she marked
during her series exam.
After lunch she rushed
from the hostel to the college.
From the display notice board. Find the examination hall and moved fast
towards it. Reaching the hall she gave a quick glance all over and found him
standing near an empty corner looking far in to gulmohar tree near the ground.
She moved towards him and suddenly the bell rang for examination and
everyone hurried towards the hall.
He awaked from his day dream looks so gloomy walked slowly towards the
room and on his way stopped near her seat and said.
“I will wait for you near the gulmohar tree after exam”
She smiled.
**************
After exam it was
farewell moments outside the hall. Hugging, laughing, weeping everyone shared
the deepness of their friendship.
She moved slowly towards
the big tree where he was expected to wait for her. The evening wind was not
that effective at that dry hot summer and ground was engaged by vacation
players and he stands silently watching them.
She joined him.
After four years of
friendship he suddenly felt so difficult to start the conversation, an unknown
fear was pulling him from behind...
After minutes of silent
conversation he looked towards her eyes and said’ “shalini, I am not feeling
that well today, shall we meet here tomorrow before you leave for your home “
She was surprised to
hear those words strangely spoken by a friend of her who knows every silence of
her.
She stands silently
watching him walking towards his hostel.
**************
Looking lazily towards the untidy floors she lost her sleep due to the
unusual behavior of her best friend.
But “what was the thing that was disturbing him to spoke to me”
She sat confused.
The fan continued his forceful rotation with no results.
**************
Every relation left behind them some
unspoken words before they left, like the sun leaving behind him the dim light
before vanishing inside the waves.
